Something I didn’t know…
So yesterday I helped an associate who had a seizure on the sales floor and it was similar to a number of accidents I’ve dealt with before. This girl, though, was JUST starting to come to and for several minutes wasn’t cognizant at all. She looked at me like a baby would and, with little motor control, just desperately fidgeted with a hanger. She could only make noises at first and had no short term or long term memory at all, constantly becoming confused and trying to stand after having just agreed to stay seated. She became fixated on removing a rubber cover bolted to a nearby fixture and no matter how many times she agreed to leave it alone and sit still, she just couldn’t. The words I could make out and the look on her face never matched what she was helplessly compelled to do with her hands.
When the paramedics arrived they were of course not surprised by her behavior at all and had to give her oxygen for 15 minutes before a constant, coherent conversation could be had with her. Although she was MUCH better after another 15 minutes when they took her to the hospital, she still wasn’t all there. Fortunately she didn’t get hurt at all.
I had no idea that your mind was this scrambled after a seizure! But it makes perfect since once you think about it. When you learn about seizures everything is focused on the shaking, and eventually the shaking is over and they just wake up…
But there’s more to it! And now I know.
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- 1 year ago
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@Anonymous "Somebody be slacking in that bloggy again!!"
Haha I know!! I can always count on you, anon.
Got distracted with the holiday weekend… and stuff. Recap coming soon!
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- 1 year ago
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@Anonymous "I hope you didn't rush in to this relationship or base it on aesthetics, and if you didn't then congratz!! :)"
Definitely not based on aesthetics… but he’s definitely cute! So uh… thanks! :D
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- 1 year ago
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@Anonymous "Your Dream:
Car?
Life?
Companion?
Lover?
Job?"
Like, in my wildest dream-dreams or more like a realistic hopes for my future dreams? Hmm… I’ll just take a shot here, Anon, but somehow you have to give me your answer to the same question!
1) Car: No idea really. I love smaller cars with good fuel economy but that still look sporty. I’d be satisfied sporting up my Scion TC and then having a higher-end car on the side like a BMW, Porche, or best yet… a Lotus!
I’d also like to drive Optimus Prime or Gurren Lagann.
2) Life: Pretty sure I want one or two kids, which means adopting. I want a generous balance of work, play, and travel… and most of all I want to share it with a special someone. I want the kind of partnership where we push each other to take life to the max.
Also, I would use a lightsaber to inspire peace on Earth.
3) Companion/Lover: This would definitely be a younger man who is too adorable because of how he much he depends on my affection. He would be self sufficient though… intelligent, ambitious, imaginitive, and loving. He would have a sense of adventure and look forward to the same kind of balance in raising a household and traveling the world that I hope for. If I’m lucky he’ll be compact, tan, and cute.
Also, he would probably be a doctor. Or possibly Anakin Skywalker or Jack Bauer.
4) Job: Changing lives and dispensing justice… like a boss.
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- 1 year ago
@fiercepoet "Tag, you're it!
Here are the rules:
Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves. You have to choose and tag ten people . Go to their blogs and tell them you tagged them. No tag back."
1) Gay.
2) Have a puppy named Foster.
3) Own a house and live with my sister and friends.
4) Single but feel like I’m talking to everybody.
5) OCD.
6) Love movies.
7) Attracted more to people wearing blue.
8) Passionate lover and fighter.
9) Only 5’6” tall.
10) Can’t turn down giving advice.
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A Weekend in Carrollton
Despite my bronchialsinusdeath, originally a strain of the T-virus Kevin says I first caught from him, I visited Carrollton to see Caleb and his show this past weekend. I brought all my usual preventative sinus infection care and had a great time! Still feeling dizzy from all the medicine head… this entry is an attempt to actually process the weekend.
The show was “All Shook Up,” a love-polygon story typical of high school theater. For Saturday night Caleb was the lead and spent most of the show in a leather jacket singing, which was actually pretty fantastic. It was all Elvis music. I met up with his friend Alec (who is also kind of his ex) before the play, since otherwise I would have no one to sit with. By sheer coincidence though, Alec and I sat immediately next to Caleb’s mom — of all the seats in the whole auditorium — and this made Caleb’s introduction of us following the show much more amusing.
After the show we ate Mexican at the Lazy Donkey and I checked us in on facebook out of obsessive habit. Upon checking his newsfeed, this made Alec’s old and new again quasi-boyfriend insanely jealous for a variety of reasons and added just a touch of drama to my margarita. His name is also coincidently Justin, which has to suck for him based on the resulting automatic comparison. I immediately fell in love with Caleb’s mom and did not see enough of her this weekend whatsoever. We watched Easy A with her after dinner and I wish I could go do that again instead of going to work in a couple hours. That’s right… YUM! - Ooh, Burn! - Oh yeahh …Easy A.

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- 2 years ago
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Sick Day
Got a cold! Which for me automatically means Defcon 1 for sinus infection. Felt like shit Wednesday but had to get up to help my sister move. Basically I melted in the sun and murdered my stomach, mostly just slowing the process down. By the time I resuscitated myself I was distracted enough by other things that I called into work and fell asleep. Most of the evening was awkward but worthwhile, as expected. As I’ve had a tendency to do, I stayed up too late running my mouth and still felt like shit this morning. I knew I only had one shot at getting any better in time for the weekend…
When I woke up today I decided to do everything I could to 1. heal my mind (empty my stressful to-do list) and 2. heal my body (flush it with meds and vitamins) so that I could rest easy tonight. I thought I might go into work for a few hours later in the evening but it didn’t happen, and that’s probably for the better.
So, at my own leisurely pace, I picked up meds from Walmart, had the new tire that was ordered installed on my car, went to the post office about the passport I need for my cruise in July, and then had the oil changed in my car and new wipers put on. No more “maintenance required” light in my dash! This is all good because I expect to be doing a lot of driving this weekend. Caleb is the lead in a play on Saturday night over in Carrollton (blegh) but I’ve almost never visited him there and I expect it to be totally worth the trip. I thoroughly enjoyed the last play I saw him in even though I pretty much drove up just to see it and then drove back. This time I’ll probably meet up with his friend Alec beforehand so I don’t have to sit alone and then I’ll have dinner with Caleb and his mom afterward, who I’ve never met.
When I got home I had a few precious it’s-practically-5PM-minutes to call my health insurance for my card info since I didn’t know where my card was, and I was able to locate a doctor that took an appointment for 6:30. I thought this was fantastic! I’d get my antibiotics like I always do so I can kick this sinus infection at its very beginning rather than waiting until it was killing me/easily diagnosable…
Apparently the desk lady thought by “doctor appointment” I meant “P.A. appointment.” I didn’t. This old not-a-doctor man that I ended up seeing was almost a complete waste of time. I was immediately grateful for not having a co-pay. He tried to give me an antihistamine instead of a decongestant (been there done that, get that allergy medicine you’re paid to promo out of my face). Then he said since he couldn’t be sure it was a sinus infection yet I would have to wait on antibiotics. Mother fucker what am I doing here?! He at least gave me something to “help me sleep” but he was only competent enough to identify the liquid form (it’s most commonly prescribed as a tablet)… but hey, the codeine in the cough syrup is starting to work right… about… now. Which is really the only benefit I received from the whole experience.
That being said, I’m going to try to go to bed earlyish/soon! I expect tomorrow to be a much better day even though I have to go into work in the morning.

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- 2 years ago
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@Anonymous "how do you do it? How do you just say to the world you are gay? Is it friends? lack of important ties or the opposite? I dont have it in me to do the same. please tell me your secret"
Well for a long time I couldn’t tell my closest friends, never mind the world. Some of my closest friends were the hardest to tell actually… because I felt like they would be disappointed that I didn’t trust them enough to tell them sooner.
I don’t think I had a “secret” to coming out. I wasn’t comfortable coming out until I tested the waters about how the people I was coming out to felt about homosexuality. I was fortunate that most of my friends were pretty liberal and open-minded about the idea. Talk about another gay person neutrally, and see what comments they make. So as not to be overwhelmed or get more than I bargained for, I told only a few people first who I already knew would be cool with it based on things I’d heard them say. I was honestly surprised by how interesting I became to my friends, and of course they all still loved me and were completely respectful about the whole thing. Since that worked out, I told another friend… and another. Now it’s just gotten to the point where I don’t care because my whole network of friends/family have known for a while and are totally cool with it.
Before I had the courage to tell my parents, which I’m pretty sure I told myself I would do when I “moved away to college,” they accidentally made their own discovery with the home computer’s Internet history. Actually, I think it was probably easier that way. They sat me down and had already prepared themselves for the news… they were supportive and the whole issue wasn’t awkward often nor for very long. Again, lucky.
If I could give any advice it would be to come out slowly. Don’t get excited and make any hefty decisions; think them through and take small steps with the people you think you can trust. And just keep reminding yourself, if any of your “friends” hate you after they find out, they were not really your friend and you’re better off without that kind of person. Even today I don’t “broadcast” it. People who are closer in my life know, people eventually find out as they get to know me, but not because I make it a disclaimer. And it’s never turned into a “thing” with anyone. I don’t hide it or advertise it. I’m a lot more expressive on Tumblr because that’s what it’s for, and most of the people who look at my blog are complete strangers anyway.
I’ve seen a lot of people come out and every time 99% of their friends change nothing about how they view them… the person who ends up feeling the worst is the person who ridicules you, because truthfully he will be the minority.
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